Based outside of Boston, Massachusetts, The Thought Porch is a personal blog by aspiring novelist Max Ghannam. Posts explore the mind and body, as well motivational thoughts on life and sources of inspiration.

Pressing Reset

From time to time, it's necessary to take a step back and reassess the situation you find yourself in. I find I get so caught up in the day-to-day slog of life that it can be hard to find a view from which I can be objective as to how things are going. 

It's an important aspect of trying to become better. No matter what the thing is that I want to be better at. Especially since I have the innate tendency to be so damn hard on myself all of the time. This practice often leaves me relieved to see the results my efforts have rendered. It allows me to refocus and redirect my efforts accordingly in order to ensure they are targeted at the areas that need the most attention. 

Those are the times when it can be hard total a clear, honest viewpoint. Especially when it means pressing reset on something that a lot of effort has gone into. But it's necessary to do sometimes. Even though I know that to be a simple truth, it didn't stop me from almost having a meltdown yesterday while revising my novel.

I have never been more brimming with pride than when I finished the first draft of my novel. So naturally when I got into the thick of the revising process, I began to panic. I put so much work into that thing. As I was reading and editing yesterday, some of the strings I pulled on started to cause the overall work to come undone. I'm not kidding when I said I had a meltdown over this fact. But only for a minute or two. Until I took the time to step back. I thought I was going to have to press reset on that entire project.

The thought alone devastated me. But, with a little bit of perspective, I was able to realize that I simply needed to reset myself in that moment. That's all it took, and I was able to edit and work through the problems that popped up. You know what? In the end it was actually a pretty minor issue. A lapse in judgment probably cause from a late night writing session. I fixed it easily and then moved on, genuinely pleased with a majority of the writing that followed.

If I had scrapped that entire project because of one mistake, I would have been fucked. This whole attempt of bettering myself would be in jeopardy, because I would have forgotten the foundation on which I built this set of goals. 

Don't be afraid to step back, gain perspective, and reset yourself. More often that not it will allow you to approach the task at hand with renewed vigor. As scary a prospect as it might be, it's necessary.

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